A real man would have bought me flowers.

Christmas: Pink Creative Zen Vision: M 30GB, Sennheiser headphones, scarf, book, flashlights, candy, makeup, Pepsi polo, Pepsi hoodie, ETC

Yesterday: One of my dogs got put to sleep.

Today: On the rocks!

I don't exist, everyone's more important than me, I don't give enough, I'm cruel; what's next? I'm not waiting around to find out!

More later; I'm wiped and there's a cat with a fluffy tail outside that I simply MUST find! Prada? Hello!

Crimbo Eve

I had a dream about being at some kind of mountain resort; I was surrounded by Pepsi men and they were good and evil. One of them was "good" but would only give me information if I gave my body to him. Another was just bad. Sigh, is this how I really feel about Pepsi men?!

Merry Christmas Eve: I'm hoping for REALLY GOOD STUFF. The food will at least be fantastic. Faaaaantastic. Especially MY COOKIES.

Now, if it would simply snow.

Change of pace

I'm switching my major to Homeland Security.

New scenery, new goals, new requirements. New people.

Have to live up to my ego, I guess

So, I'm almost officially in a rut. I had a nightmare last night and it came true (not surprisingly; my dreams often come true for some reason). I suppose it's best for everyone. That's really all I can say on the subject.

I've finally been in contact with some people from the college (everyone EXCEPT my professor) and my options are basically:

o Send in a letter, asking to have my aid continued, even though I won't meet my full-time status this year.
o Take a summer course for the three credits that I need to meet my full-time status.
o Just give up.

Either way, I will apparently be able to take courses this spring, which is a relief. I think that I will most likely just take a course this summer. Probably Speech or a math course, since those are required. I'm getting in touch with my academic advisor regarding which math courses I have to take; it's been so long since I've had my enrollment testing, I have no clue. I will have enough money, what with my large Cube paychecks and what's left from my financial aid. So, I think I'll be okay as far as that goes.

I spent the rest of the day networking. I have a few things going..I'll settle out. Just as long as I'm not alone for a few days. Furthermore, my Secret Santa GREATLY ENJOYED her gifts, so I'm chuffed about that.

I have to make more cookies tonight because everyone is obsessed with them. Secret sugar cookie ingredient: nutmeg.

How much are you worth?

Slipping down and back again

We've finally mostly decorated our tree today. Out of all of our live Christmas trees we've ever had, this one is the hurtiest. It makes my fingers just hurt so badly, and then the needles fall out, like it wants me to also step on them! I don't know whether or not my tree will go up in my room. I haven't really felt up to it, honestly.



I really want to go see Eragon. It has Sienna Guillory in it, who played Jill Valentine in RE: A. MUST VIEW.

I was doing some searching about unrequited love on Wiki, which led to obsessive love. According to Wiki, here's what breeds it:

o Leisure
o Education
o Feelings of vulnerability
o Inflated opinion of oneself
o Particular childhood experiences
o Feelings of being special
o Inequality between the lover and beloved

This is all really interesting to me. It says that regression therapy is the best cure. To be honest, regression therapy is crap. Guess I'm stuck with being in love with a man who won't have me! :(

According to BBC: Aspects of obsessive compulsive disorder can also be found in those experiencing lovesickness, such as preoccupation and obsessively checking for text messages and e-mails.

Yes, I check for texts constantly! Though, not from him. :( I wish he'd text me.

I took a five-hour nap this evening, and I'm ready for more soon. I've been dead tired lately.


I'm so under pressure.

Merry Christmas, assholes

A FEW THINGS:

1.) I failed science and therefore I think I've lost my financial aid and that means I'll have to leave college for forever and probably become a maid or something. :(
2.) Geek Squad guys? Uh, Hell yes son!
3.) Chili's is stillllllllll yummu.


Maybe the Julies can teach me their previous trade.

Yeah, I failed science. I'm devastated. Like, really depressed. I begged my professor to move my grade up the two percentage points that it needed and she still wouldn't do it. This makes me extremely SAD because, like I said, I'm 99.9% sure that I'll be put on financial aid suspension. Argh. Not only that, but I'll have to add another class to my schedule somehow in order to be full-time. FUCK.

I went to Cranberry today..it worked out better than we thought. Though my mother almost punched the manager at the store we went to. That manager was a huge bitch. She was like, "It was your choice to shop here, your choice. You chose to shop here." No shit, you twat. We didn't choose to receive defective products, though, or pay $40 to have the defective products shipped to us only to have to drive to the store anyway. But there was this really awesome Geek Squad guy..holy shit, I have a new fetish. Well, I used to really be into geeky guys, and then I kind of liked the whole "jock type," but now I think I'm back into nerds. This guy was so nice, he went and got this paper that said that they had to give us a brand new product and stuff. (I'd give more details but this concerns my brother's Christmas present and he may be reading this.) Then this other guy, who was the head of his department, his name was Joe, and holy shit..even geekier than the Geek Squad guy, but so cute. And so damn nice. They were all nice except for the manager, I swear that bitch needs reamed.

We went to Kohl's and I got some of those Sakura Christmas cat plates that match my mugs. I also bought more of the mugs, but I'll prooobably return them (I thought they were different than the ones I currently have). Ummmm, then I went to Jo-Ann's and didn't get anything. Went to Chili's. Got my usual (Fajita Quesadillas--chicken--don't forget the guacamole) and it was good.

Ben had his hockey playoffs tonight. His team came in second, but they got these trophies and they're really nice. He was annoyed that he lost, but he did really well. He's pretty good. PRETTTTTTY GOOD.

Christ, I'm feeling down on myself.


But Matt and Ann would tell me to keep going. And uh..I'm sure that guy with the bra would, too.

At least there will be plenty implied.

Overall, it was a pretty decent weekend. I got some money, socks, lipgloss, picture frames, gift cards...good stuff. I do believe that my cousins adore me!

My grandfather shafted me but I don't care; he'll drop dead any day now anyway!

I have most of my grades back now. A in English, C in Health (??), C in History. How the fuck..did I get a C in Health? And how did I get a C in History??? Arggghhh whatever. The most torturous grade isn't up yet, I'm still praying that I'll get a passing grade in Science. My grades for this semester are such shit. But I mean, English went well!

One week until Christmas Eve! Soooo excited. Tomorrow we're going to Cranberry, doing something regarding Ben's present..fun stuff? Maybe we'll get Boston Market! Woo! Tuesday I'm getting my hair done, and probably having lunch or something with my aunt. Wednesday is up in the air, Thursday is up..taking Ben to Lori's, I reckon. Friday-Sunday is CHRISTMAS STUFF! and then Monday is THE BIG DAY.

Very excited.


What makes you think I care?